Awesome Vendetta Mask

Warning Word Press Sites Are Getting Hacked

I've been cross posting on Word Press AstorToons.com when I had posted an article called This Week On Greed And Stupidity about the recent SCOTUS ruling and the depths the Koch Brothers will go to silence liberal voices. The next day my WP site was hacked.

This simply illustrated my point. What we liberals are saying are obviously getting to them and they will go to any length to try and shut us down.

The point I was making is that the Koch brothers are rigging our democracy. Little by little they are remaking the country into their own dystopian image. And we Have to speak up. If we don't, they win.

So I am in the process of retooling a new website.image
Animated Cthulu

Better Magic Seer Joints than Magic Nose Goblins

So I got this inspiration from this angel named Moronus who put some magic coppers discs on my nightstand. I at first used them as coasters. He said, "no, no, NO!" Put them in a beret and read them with these magic seer joints. Here, light up. "okay, I said." But I couldn't find a beret, so I got my Grateful Dead hat. He said "oh, fine, close enough." So I did and this picture with the inscription came up. He then said "put these discs away so nobody finds them. But I accidently left them on the porch while I was checking the mail and some drunk swiped them and sold them for scrap. He came by later all repentant and offered to share his whiskey. "Ah, what the fuck." I said and got drunk. Moronus got stoned instead.

Abandon hope

I still post here

 Just not as often. I don't like the corporate gerbil-jump of Facebook, it's just that I am stuck here in this frozen Tundra called Hamilton, cutt off from 98% of the friends I made in the states and it's just easier to keep in touch. But I am NOT abandoning Live Journal. NOT!!

I especially hate the fact that Facebook sells your e-mail address to every goddamn corporation under the sun and I get over 200+ junk e-mails that I never asked for, I don't want and are unwelcome as fuck. But I wish there were somebody better. I hated MySpace and I hate LinkdIn or whatever that horseshit is called and I wish to fuck that somebody better, less shilling, less weaseling would come along.

I feel stuck for now. What do you use?
Awesome Vendetta Mask

Astor's 12 Step Program

I appreciate what the AA 12 Step Program is trying to do. But I have severe objections to the religious dogma that plagues the program. I also take severe issue with the second step which is to surrender and turn yourself over to a higher power. It's too passive. The idea behind getting well is for your Better Self, the Self that wants to live, not die to see things through the end, and hopefully a really long life, is the sheer force of will that you have to engage to stop the drugs and drinking. You have the power all along. You have the ability to stop the screaming child within that just wants more and more and listen to the wise old man (or old lady) that is the body's natural endorphins that you generate in abundance. So here it is: (by the way, I am on step 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7)

Astor's 12 Step Program

1. I feel my life has spun out of control and I have had enough. I have been in a nightmare prison. A rabbit hole. The drugs and alcohol are making me sick. I want out. I want to live. I want to be free.

2. I honour the withdrawal. Emotions race, nerve endings fire up. I get uncomfortable but that is the body reawakening from it's stupour. It will balance out. It takes time. I must be patient. It will pass. I will honor the rush of emotions.

3. Acknowledge that pain is a signal. I am carrying psychic pain that is manifesting itself in my body. It might be guilt, shame, anger, fear. Something is eating away at my soul and it's manifesting itself in my body. I must find out what it is. The drugs and alcohol are just masking that pain and I won't get better until I soul search.

4. I have done my soul searching and found what it is that is causing my pain. I honour the strong emotions that come out.

5. I make amends to the people I have hurt while I was drugging and drinking. I acknowledge their anger at me while I was sick. I will heal where I can. If they are passed on, I will pray for their peace. Compassion and empathy is the way to live.

6. I forgive all of those who trespassed against me. I realize that "We all have chapters we would like to rewrite." They are also carrying their own burdens. Happy people are not mean. Mean people are unhappy. I have compassion for them.

7. I acknowledge that nobody's perfect. That means me. I forgive myself.

8. I dedicate my life to exercise. Motion is lotion. The human body was built to move. It wasn't THAT long ago that we were all hunters, trappers, gatherers and beasts of burden. Our bodies are built for that.

9. I find alternatives to drugs. I reach out. I find support. I try acupuncture. Old fashioned aspirin. A recent study by Times Magazine has said that the most effective pain medicine on the market is aspirin. There is no rabbit hole with aspirin! The stomach won't allow it.

10. I listen to music. Music stimulates the endorphins. Those cold chills that go up my spine when listening to Beethoven are those good old endorphins. I watch a funny movie. Laughter also stimulates endorphins.

11. I do service to others. Others suffer too and they need all the help they can get. I must find my passion. I must spread my positive energy where I can. I need to find something greater than myself.

12. I am free!!!!